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I have this strange feeling that's hard to let go
that I am not myself anymore.
It's hard to put into words
but I guess it's like I was fast asleep, and someone
came, dissembled me,
and hurriedly put me back
together again.
That sort of feeling.



I feel bad for you, whoever you are. Sincerely, I do.

Playlist Of The Week 2 (after an eternity of delays)

   1.  400 Lux - Lorde

   

 " We're never done with killing time

Can I kill it with you

Till the veins run red and blue?

We come around here all the time 

Got a lot to not do

Let me kill it with you"

2. Hold On -Angus & Julia Stone

     

"And I'm hoping that you will say

That you loved me all this time 

But it turns out just the same

And you break apart the things I had"

3. The Mother We Share- Chvrches

"Never took your sides, never cursed your name

I keep my lips shut tight, until you go

We've come as far as we are ever gonna get

Until you realize, that you should go"

4. Death Valley - Fall Out Boy

      "But we're alive 

Here in the death valley

But dont take love off the table yet

'Cause tonight

Its just fire alarms and losing you

We love a lot

So we only lose a little 

But we are alive

We are alive"

5. Money Power Glory -Lana del Rey

6. Live Forever - Oasis

LDR

They say I'm too young to love you

They say I'm too dumb to see

They judge me like a picture book by the colors 

Like they forgot to read

I think we're like the wind and sea 

You're burning up, I'm cooliing down

You're up , I'm down 

You're blind, I see

But I'm free

 I'm free

MUSIC to your ears, Playlist at the moment.

       As you may know, I am a big fan of music. I listen to all kinds of music, REALLY.  Metal, reggae,blues, RnB, trash. Pretty much EVERYTHING, you name it. So that's why I don't have any particular type of music genres which is my favorite. IF you ask me what kind of music I like, my answer is : I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA. But let's just say the most songs I listen to is English and German songs.

   That means, for example, if I hear a Metal song, if the melody soothes me, or EARGASM as you may say. Then I will love it. So particularly, every type of song is my favorite if they give me an eargasm.

   From this, I am thinking about including a playlist sometimes to my blog. A playlist of my favorite songs at the moment. Thus, this give you some recommendation to other songs other than the songs that you usually heard from the RADIO.

    Let's just say that I am not a fan of the songs that is airing at the radio in the moment. Yes, I do listen to the radio, but the thing is, those songs from the radio is too popular. I mean , everybody will listen to the songs, everybody knows the songs. So, it is too mainstream and therefore it is BORING. And yes, I know which songs is on top of the chart now. And therefore, the radio will keep repeating the songs which tops the chart. So you will get sick of the radio stations ( pretty much every radio station) after you tune in for an hour. But no offence to that really. After all, I am just giving my opinion. My only favorite radio station is (particular XX) fm which introduce new songs sometimes.

   So here's my playlist of the week :


   1. Lana Del Rey- Young And Beautiful

 

2. Club 8- Jesus, Walk with me

 

 

3. Imagine Dragons- Demons

     

4. Keane - Sovereign Light Cafe (Afrojack remix)

5. Zee Avi - Concrete Wall

 That's it. And my top most fav song in this playlist gotta be CONCRETE WALL from Zee Avi. That song is a total impression. And it never fails to give me GOOSEBUMPS every time I listen to it. That's what I love about Zee Avi, and she is a Malaysian by the way making her music in US. This song has a unique blends of melodies which can possess you in some away.

   So that's it, coolies!!  Hope you enjoy!

     

Living life on the FAST lane

     So hey coolies, whatsup?? So here I am, already at my hostel in Penang, couldn't be more prouder than myself as now I got a new laptop and  I have a new thing to add on now to entertain myself -- blogging.

    So where should I start? Oh, if you are wondering, I have been in college for 6 weeks now. 6 WEEKS!!!! That's like 1 month and two weeks already!!! WHAT!!!!??? TIME, you horrible terrible vegetable (sounds cheesy, right?) !!!!! A lot had gone through during these 6 weeks. But I always feel like is just seem like yesterday my parents help me to move in my stuff into my hostel. TIME is indeed your enemy / foe. But the truth is, you are your own enemy. Watch your back, haha.

    MY college's life so far have never been so enjoyable and hilarious as I ever imagined it will be. I am in love with my housemates. Really, I do. But let's don't break the surprise first. I will come to that blog post about my housemates later. Yup, they are SO SPECIAL to me that I need to dedicate a blog post especially to them. So, if you wanna know more about them, just stay tune to my blog, as USUAL.
 
    SO, about my college. My college is HUGE, yup, quite huge. BUTTTT, with a small entrance. WHY is that, I never will know. Located right at heart of PENANG, bustling main street, in the middle of that little corner, right there, there's my college. But don't you come and search for me and my college, you will not be entertain. HAHAHAHA, just joking (SERIOUSLY, please DON'T).  There's a lot type of people you can find here in my college, mostly STUDENTS, of course. RICH students (NO OFFENCE to that, really). ANDDD, they are different people which typically you can't find anywhere on the street. From the way they talk, they act, they dress, they are different at some point. You can find them in my college. But of course, there are many NORMAL students too in my college, the one you can find ANYWHERE on the street. But, you know how they are like, so I will not do some explaining to you.  AND I think I am stuck between these two categories. Me and my two best friends at the moment( we will go to that part later.).

  SO here's the thing. Once you are in college, you are automatically a freshman. Which is an AGONY at the first part. NO ONE took notice on you as a freshman, no one except all the other freshmen. BUT my point is: No SENIORS gonna notice the freshmen. The only thing is that : YOU NEED TO STAND OUT AMONG THE CROWDS to get them notice you, Stand out , but not as bright as a diamond (you probably start singing"shine bright like a diamond" in your head now, I bet). Even though if you wanna stand out and shine bright like a diamond, go ahead , I wouldn't mind. IF you do that, every single person on EARTH sure will notice you because you are a  WALKING DIAMOND.
   
   Where was I ? OH, college. YUP. I really like my college anyway. WITH the environment and the lecturers, and the friends there and most especially those EYE CANDIES in my college. Well come on, you know what EYE CANDIES means, right??? Or , no? Nah, you should probably figure it out yourself. WELL, those eye candies never failed to amused me every single day when I am in college, when they are just mingling around, or just pass by for that brief moment, that REALLY made my day , and I will go around the college after that acting like a hyena who just got a new horn on its head and thinks he is already a unicorn. IF you don't believe me, just ask CATHERINE. She knows everything.
 
  But the main point here is, LAW subject is totally cool. When I am in that class, I give my 99% concentration to them EVERY SINGLE TIME. Yes, in case you are wondering, I am now taking Pre-Law in A level. And yes, my passion is to become a lawyer. And yes, I am serious about that, people. And my law lecturer is unlike any other. He is the next JIMMY KIMMEL, I think. Jimmy Kimmel with a bunch of law's knowledge. And yeah, every time I am in his class, I feel like I am in a Jimmy Kimmel's talk show. An educational one. Oh, and the real Jimmy Kimmel LIVE can be educational too sometime.  BUT during BUSINESS STUDIES, hmmm.... let's just say that I am not a BUSINESS type of person, and so , you know how is like for me to concentrate during the Business Studies' class. Let us not go to that point, should we? And I don't  know why, Business and Law are really connected at some point, so the two of them combined are very important.

   So for that 6 weeks, the whole cycle repeat itself every single day (College or Uni students will know), and of course, CRAZINESS and EXCITEMENT and HILARITY came in between, which make my life really WHOLESOME now, at this moment. BUT the most PATHETIC part is, the time passed wayyyyyy too fast. WHOSSH, and then those hours were gone!! My mom said it before, if you do that same thing and do the same routine every single day, the time really do passed very quickly. And because the cycle of routine when you are a college student repeat itself over and over again until you graduate, the time do passed  rapidly. Oh please, come on TIME, can you at least not wearing your super sonic running shoes for just that ONE DAY???

     Oh well, coolies. I will not keep on blabbering around anymore. I still got my BUSINESS STUDIES' homework to do after this, and it's already past midnight. And HUSHHHHH, you know the reason why I keep my BS homework for the very last minutes. HAHA.

  And so, since my topic is about time and the 'journey' that I have to endure, let me end this post with my fav song that is related about time. I don't know, but every time I hear this song, I immediately thought about  time, and where do I waste my time on during the last time.

      "Would you get hip to that kindly trip,

      When you make that California trip,

      Get your kicks on Route 66,

      Get your kicks on Route 66......."

( Add some air guitar's stint to that !)

 So peeps, hope you enjoy the post. Oh and what's a blog post without a picture???? So here's one for you :

There's me on the far right and my lovely bunch of housemates.

 So, ciao! And keep my aware of my blog!

Then you see me NOT

     Well, it's been forever since I last check in my blog. That was like since CHRISTMAS !! wow. So yeah, I would like to apologize to you and YOU. I dont know, at one point I was just like, completely ignoring my blog.  Like, TOTALLY. And then , the weirdest thing happen, is not that weird actually, but is weird for me!  Some ANONYMOUS  just suddenly comment-complementing about my blogposts! (And I was like, what the?.....!) And the most butt annoying PART is : They are anonymous so I NEVER knew their names!!!!! Come on guys, you are complementing about my blogpost (though I never knew why my blog is ever that entertaining or even worth complementing!) but I really want to know your names so that I can reply to you or thank you!  But whatevs, as long as I can butt entertaining you ANONYMOUS out there, then I will start and activate my blog again, to make it feel ALIVE!!! And what keeps me wondering is that, does my friends out there even notice my blog or even peek at my blog?? Well, I hope they do. That doesn"t bother me much actually, after all, blog is a nice place where you can express your views and thoughts not so PUBLICALLY as in FACEBOOK. Blog for me, is a perfect place to write your own views so that some people who MAYBE have the exact same experiences or thoughts as mine know that they are NOT alone and what they do and experienced is normal. I want them to know that ( after they read about my blogpost): "Wow, I never knew that she felt as what as I have felt too ! Thats really exactly what I thought!" Oh well, I hope that my blog is actually helpful in some itsy bitsy way possible!

    SOOOOOO, finally, thanks for my never ending-patience and yearning-for-some-lil-butt-attention's- attitude, my NEW LAPTOP is FINALLY hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!  ( ***heavenly chapel HALLELUYA song on the background***)  Oh, praise the LORD !! praise the GOD !! praise the food !! praise the chair (w-h-y?) !!! praise EVERYTHING !!! My laptop is finally here !! Make a way, make a way !!
  Oh shit, I am just being dramatic here. ANDDDD I am probably scaring you off now. So I will just STOP.

  Oh so, yeah, a new laptop. So why did I make a huge fuss about my new laptop anyway?? Well, I have been waiting for this new laptop since FOREVER !! Oh well is not for forever actually, is only since for the last TWO MONTHS, but hey,  if I want a new laptop, I can actually walk in through any shops and buy one anytime, right ? BUT thats not the case, well you know my mom, and she can be very MOMSY PANTSY sometime which is quite annoying, and since my cousin sales laptops, she just said :" Well girl, remember that, if you buy from your cousin, it maybe will be cheaper than the market price." So i was like, ok. And then she said : " Well girl, if you buy a laptop from him, they will be free of charge of servicing and repairing and installing." So I was like, ok, AGAIN. And then after her NEVER ENDING ''Well girl , this this that that", the time drags and I finally own this lappy ! BUT NOT before my huge dillemma of thinking which KIND of laptop model I wanted to buy. I have always have this kind of major serious chronic sense of attitude, you know, everytime I want to buy something, I cannot make up my mind INSTANTLY, that something is like the life and death HUMONGOUS decision for me. EVEN if I want to buy a shirt. I will be like: Will this color look nice on me? or maybe that color? or maybe another color? How will this color affect me? Will it bring me luck? or will it make me look like a drag? can I have all the colors from this shirt? If i do, will I look boring? If I didn't, will I regret about not having another color if I wore this shirt ? And those never ending unanswerable questions which may DOOM your life. ANDDD in the end, I didn't bought ANY which of course, makes my life more easier. HAHA.. YES, I AM THAT TERRIBLE.

   But in this laptop case, I MUST own it. I have to own one. My mom said, laptop is very very ESSENTIAL once you step in college. And since my old laptop had  since gone to some laptop heaven somewhere above, so I need to have a new one. So after a month long's drag, THERE IT IS, my new possession, le lappy. :)))))))) I may never knew how 'crucial' a customer I am to my cousin, you may should probably ask him. Haha. Now there I have it.

     And with this new darling here, I may start my quality time blogging again!! (***applause??***) Blogging has been my fav ever since. But since my old laptop crash and the only way to blog is through my iPad, which of course, I never did written any blogpost with my ipad because the other apps and distractions available in a tablet TOTALLY consume you from typing any blog post. Teehehe. SO that explain the reason why I didn't blog for a looooooooooonnnggg time already.

   So as a way of showing my gratitude to you by willing to read this whole blogpost  from the top to the end of mine (which I think is quite SENSELESS post anyway), here's a picture of a HOT + CUTE GUY (which is my OPPA) :

   

  So if you are a guy , here's a baby kitten for you :

      Because for me, a guy holding a cute baby kitten is the cutest thing ever. HAHA.

     Oh, let me end this blog post with my favourite song at the moment :

 

  So for you ANONYMOUS out there, here's my blog and you are welcome!

  STAY TUNE, peeps. And HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY. I love you mom, you know I do. 

Merry Christmas. (Day 1)

So Peeps , I know is been for ages, but hey, ismChristmas, guys!! That begins with the C and the H and the I then R and S and then come the T with M and the A and finally ends with a S !!
Ok guys , I am being bored here and I know you probably want to log out from my blog now because you don't want me to bore you to death on this peaceful and holy HOLY day.
( Phh, I mean, come on, which one of you will be interest on reading a blog which teach you how to spell the word ' CHRISTMAS ' right? ) Everyone human on earth knows how to spell it , Of course.
And this Blog ought to put some Christmas blah blah on it, because, hey, is Christmas. And one of the reason is, everyone is away right now, and I m alone at home and practically bored to death, so yeah, writing my blog now just to fill my wasteful time to do something meaningful in Deutschland. Few days left.
So yeah, my day begins today by baking a cake with my host mama for tomorrow and preparing some dishes for tonight's dinner. Is gonna be a super big feast tonight!! With my family and relatives. I m looking forward to it!!! I mean, of course, not looking forward to fatten myself up, although I know it will. Buy hey, Christmas means gaining calories right?? So yeah, bittersweet !!
But strangely, I didn't have much appetite these days.. I don't know what's happening on me these days, but I m so lazy to eat or should I say, MUNCH. I totally didn't have the mood on eating. Is there something wrong with me, you People ??!!! (If YES, please comment below on the post :] ). So, I just don't feel like eating.............
And although this will be my FIRST Christmas ever, it doesn't really feels like Christmassy enough!!! I mean, hello, where is the SNOW ?!!!!!! White Christmas, people , WHITE CHRISTMAS !!!! But look, what a shitty weather outside :((( And what's more?? the people around me doesn't really have the Christmas mood, I mean, the feeling of Christmas. Is just like, for them, is like every damn normal day where you just know how to breath and do the things that you supposed to do, but the day just state there: CHRISTMAS day. And they will be like : Oh, ok, yeah, is Christmas , so what ? Presents, Christmas trees, Food. And then , finish. PERIOD.
Ughhh.. They are so not looking forward for Christmas at all!! Naja, what I can do huh?? Just let it be.
So, yeah, our Christmas tree is pretty enough for me to be happy about Christmas. And oh, I decorated it all by myself, anyway. So of course, it is pretty!! ***nose starts to flares*** haha.
And the presents .... Oh, the presents!!!! Can't wait to get my hand on the presents tonight!!!!! But first, you need to sit up for hours for the Christmas Family Dinner , that means, awkward family conversation and laughs and other agonies.....But in my host family's case, it will be super funny and quite enjoyable ( I hope so). I hope I can survive anyway from that and always keep myself entertain before I get my Xmas presents!!
Oh boy oh boy oh boy, what will I get from those presents ?? ;DDD
So yeah. Finish. I will keep you update tomorrow on my 'Merry Christmas (Day 2)' part.
I hope you are SERIOUSLY ENTERTAIN from my nonsenses.

So here's a pic of Christmas :



P/s : Christmas tree with mustache is soooo totally awesome, total HIPSTER. I hope I have one , one day. Haha.


Sooooo, Tschüssy !! Have a Not-so-boring Merry Christmas. Frohe Weihnachten !!